To numb to feel,

to numb to care.

All I want to do is stare.

The news is bad.

Is this all there is to be had?

My emotions are drained.

Oh Lord, even to call out to you,

my words are strained.

Are you there?

 Do you care?

In desperation I cry out,

it turns into an angry shout.

Everything is dark.

Where is the light?

You say in your Word,

Come unto me all you that

labor and are heavy laden, and I will

give you rest.

Well, here I am, all of me.

All the uncertainties, all

the questions, all the tears,

all the confusion, all the fears.

Here I am, all of me.

I can no longer take being tossed

by the waves if this boiling sea.

Your Word says that you send forth your Word and it will

not return to you void.

I am your child, so I can take

your Word as my own.

I cannot trust my emotions.

I bring each one to you,

and you will give me rest.

Your Word says,

"Take my yoke upon you, and learn

of me; for I am meek and lowly

in heart; and you shall find rest

for your souls."

OK, it's becoming clearer now.

My thoughts are calming

down.

When I cried out in desperation,

You heard my cry and answered me.

"Come unto me," you said. "And I

will give you rest."

When I ask it shall be

given to me.

I take your yoke upon me and

learn of you; and shall find rest

for my soul.

Seek and I shall find.

Your Word says,

"For my yoke is easy, and my

burden is light."

The light is back on in my soul.

Knock and it shall be opened to me.

I do not accept the bad news

spoken over me.

I live by faith and not by

what I feel or see.

Because your truth is in me.

You lift me up out of the corner of

desperation and set my feet

upon a rock.

You are that rock, my high tower.

No longer shall I cower in the corner.

I stand on the rock.

My life's clock shall not stop.

Your Word says,

I shall live and not die.

All glory belong to thee.

2009